It has been a while since I wrote. I have gone into and out of therapy. My motivation is still mostly lacking. I am on an anti-depressant that has a good but strange effect on me. So a lot in a the last few months.
I still don’t think I have figured out what being a Laurel means yet. I enjoyed the retreat and I felt somewhat motivated after that. I have tried to teach a bit as well. I taught at Maidens and at the Atlantia University Winter session. It is a bit deep subject class and I am just not sure if it is serving the purpose I want it to. I think it is important. I will try to teach it at Pennsic.
I do want to work more on the Apple Tunic and possibly something else. I was gifted some lovely trim and I would like to have something to put it on.
Gertie’s health is a bit of rollercoaster. She is better than she was. But now all of the other body parts are complaining as she re-learns to use long dormant muscles.
This past weekend was Better War Through Archery. I normally am very excited for this event. I didn’t have any alcohol based class to teach. I did pay my respects to the vigilants and they all well-deserved their honors. Mostly though, I sat around and didn’t do anything. Not very laurel-like really.
I am really hoping to get apples this year.
Work is going well. I might get a promotion soon. My boss greatly appreciates me and what I do. That is a high point of my days now.
This anti-depressant means I have a constant stream of music in my head. Mostly it is pretty good. I don’t really have my inner monologue telling me how wrong I am or how I have been wronged by others. My body is more used to the medication now so the initial “buzz” of it is worn off but it still has a pretty good effect on my mood. I occasionally see old thoughts surfacing but they seldom have the strength to stay around long. It all gets washed up in the music.
I don’t know what the next thing is. I am wrapping up vinegars. I can’t really do my hot glass anymore. I want to sew but I can’t seem to get over the activation hump. Nothing new has excited me yet and that is an unusual state for me.
